Wednesday, October 17, 2007
i'm just random crapping here. im going to malaysia and im gonna ice-skate (or learn how to) and if we're lucky maybe we can go Times Square where they have the indoor roller coaster. Last time i took it i closed my eyes the whole time... that was P5 i think. So i wont close my eyes if i get to go. i do wish that i could go some place further or a different part of malaysia... OH! i wanna see the fireflies again! :) but all this could splat just as easily as an egg...
i know many people already know but i just feel like writing down what i wanna be when i grow up.
Possible ones: doctor (animal or human) or a zoo keeper. maybe a pet shop owner. I DONT WANNA BE A DESK-JOBBER... but i think in singapore its the only thing you can do.
Impossible ones: singer, pianist, orchestral performer, conductor, SAF pilot, research scientist (my science grades suck), dancer (WAY IMPOSSIBLE), detective :)
Jobs that suck (no offence to people who like them) : teachers (instrument might still be ok), desk job, *taxi driver, bus driver, road sweeper (not that im biased against them cuz they dont pay well - its just that i dun like doing physically stressing stuff), toilet cleaner (although we could never do without them), electricians
*i really hate some taxi drivers. today i was walking home and then its like there was this taxi waiting to turn out into the main road. then i saw this car coming so i thought i could pass in front and then when i was like walk one step in front the taxi suddenly jerked forward and then, as pei wei has experience in, i didnt really feel like "OMG!" or like really a shock. i just stopped and walked behind the taxi, then it zoomed off. it was after that that i felt a surge of anger. its like these stupid people are so impatient! if they were in my shoes they'd be shouting at the taxi driver. then i really felt very very angry and its like my angel side was like saying "Cool down! These people are for God to judge and you arent exactly very patient either, and theres no point getting angry... why are you angry anyway?" but then its like i couldnt get rid of it. maybe im getting old. i havent gotten this angry for like two years at least. i always prided myself on being quite emotionless. like, no shock, no anger, no crying, no disappointment. sometimes i fake laugh if the other party is laughing or fake smile. i do occasionally feel genuinely happy larh. i think its quite obvious from my face im not a happy person. in any case my emotions are usually on the black side, if not neutral. but this incident really pissed me off and i was like walking home consoling myself all the way (5 minutes). *haiix* im getting too adult.
Do you know what a rock feels? they say the easiest way to be happy is to have no desires, and yet enjoy everything. like it, but don't attach yourself to it.
