Friday, February 15, 2008
Haha so long never update le... at least my blog didn't get deleted again like someone's blog :). Anyway ya, it's like very lag but im talking about chinese new year. Lol. Erm. Ya we had lion dance again but then no firecrackers. We played fireworks larh. It was like very stinky. Then i stepped on a frog but and it turned over under my foot before i realised i was stepping on something weird and cold then took my feet away and it turned over and hopped off frantically and angrily. Then there was this black rat running around in the garden and jerelyn was so freaked out. Then my uncle forgot that he didn't give me an ang pao. And all of us were like stuffing our faces with oranges and bak kwa. The bak kwa was very nice. Peiwei says i became moodier since coming back from chinese new year. Actually its like i duno why but then i've started feeling rather depressed again. I've realised how stupid i really am... so blind. Anyway i've started seriously liking rock music (um that is linkin park). I duno if thats good or bad. I've started self-learning rachmaninoff's prelude in C# minor and have made it about halfway. And God answered my prayer. When people get better marks than me, im not jealous anymore. I just feel tired and resigned. What's the point of working hard in this life? We're all gonna die anyway. The only thing that matters is that we have to do something for God because we're in a huge serious debt. The thing is I don't have enough resources to repay that debt... anyway. Even if we get praises or criticism God wouldn't care. So i should learn to stop surviving on them. We should learn to lean on something that is eternal not something that will definitely let you down some day, like people around you and possessions. Argh i duno what else to crap le. bye.
