Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Argh Peiwei messed up my tagboard. I am really not gay because I'm not even a boy. Argh it still sounds like I'm gay. Aiya whatever larh.
I've been having a lot of dreams of late. I just had two dreams of betrayal in one sitting (or sleeping). And I woke up crying. Is it strange to cry when you wake up? Storybook characters always seem to cry themselves to sleep. I find it quite near impossible to be crying all the way to sleep. Anyway whatever. This is getting too emo and self-centred.
Haha Peiwei is having band now. Gosh I feel so happy man. But then again next week there is monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday of 9 am - 5 pm guzheng. Then the next week there is monday, wednesday, thursday, friday of 9 am - 5pm guzheng. I think. Anyway I know for sure that guzheng will take up four whole days of each week. Dang! Ah well anyway need to practise for guzheng exam. DIE! Coming liao and i still have no motivation to practise properly after i finished learning the songs. But I scared my fingers become stiff - Amanda says her piano teacher's student learn guzheng and his fingers couldn't play the piano properly.
Speaking of piano teachers, I don't want to let anyone down anymore. I don't know what he saw or heard in me but I think he'll send me off to playing Czerny. He says I use my technique wrongly. How can you use your technique in wrong places? It's either you have technique or you don't. I think. Anyway I am dying on my Stravinsky tango. It doesn't sound like a tango!
Enough of that. I feel quite guilty for leaving my first piano teacher before reaching the ATCL exams. She did bring me up from Grade 1 until now and all I am is probably due to her. But God seems to have quite clearly directed us to this path, since he made everything so smooth.
I don't know anymore. I feel tired after writing such a lengthy pointless thing.
