Saturday, August 29, 2009
God heard my prayers, even though they weren't exactly directed towards Him... I scored a relatively high distinction for piano exam. And an A1 for Chinese -.- And well, it seems that Wang laoshi doesn't totally feel I can't make it into the finals now, that's some consolation ^^ Thank you God! :) But honestly I am still a very jealous person... I know its selfish of me to want to be better than everybody else, and it's impossible. But... sometimes I feel my jealousy helps me to play better. It lends me more emotions when playing Chopin hahaha. Jocelyn is going to learn from wang laoshi as well. I should stop hoping that I'm better than her because I am obviously not better than her -.- I really don't want to care about what wang laoshi thinks anymore.
Anyway, went with Pei Wei to YST yesterday! It's been a very long time since we last went out together... Felt quite sad, really. The guy's Chopin and Schubert was super nice! O.O His encore piece - Schumann's song transcribed by Liszt - was super nice too! His Appassionata was sort of disappointing though but ending with the Chopin and Schubert totally made up for it ^^ Left the concert hall still in the dream that music gives you. I think I'm dying for piano. I have only two months left. My pieces are a dreadful mess. I really want to get into finals (not for fame or whatever portfolio -.- but because if I get into finals, my parents will more likely allow me to pursue music as a career). But so many people out there are competing for one place. What are the chances of me even getting through semi-finals? Or I probably won't even get through quarter finals -.- Sigh.. I think I should be glad Jocelyn and Lixian are participating in intermediate, otherwise I highly doubt I can get through quarter finals. But seniors are supposed to be pro-er... AIYA I DUNO. >.< GOD PLEASE HELP ME. I REALLY CANNOT DO IT ANYMORE.
