Monday, August 31, 2009
Reading my blog from its earliest posts and my personal diary from primary two til now I realise that, as Pei Wei said, I have changed a lot. For one thing, I think I fart many more times a day now. Okay that's stupid, but true.
I guess you could say my story is a little like a Cinderella story? I remember crying out to God desperately not too long ago (okay maybe one or two years ago - time passes so fast), asking Him why He did not let me be born into a musical family like all those geniuses - Mozart, Beethoven or even contemporary pianists - so that I could become a pianist. A few people told me before that to become a professional pianist you need to have a musical family background - you need to have musical genes in you as well. And I looked at profiles of all the famous pianists and competition winners... All of them either were blessed with parents of great musical talent or came under the wing of greatly distinguished piano teachers since a very young age. And my parents... my mother's greatest achievement in music was becoming a leader in a harmonica band in JC and my father's greatest musical achievement is learning how to sing in tune. And I would keep asking God why He put me into this family.
But now... I'm glad God made me who I am. Really. I cannot stand to think about what if I were someone else around me. God probably let me be born into this family because then I wouldn't tell myself that all these are my works. And I know they aren't. Thank you God for bestowing this gifts on me out of all people... But I don't know how to continue on...
I really don't know how anymore, God. Will You please give me an answer? I am dying from all these expectations... Please teach me, God, to have eyes only for You.
